Mama. That's my new name. It's my favorite name. I've waited a long time for this name and I love being called Mama more than I ever could have imagined.
You see, I was "that girl." I just wanted to get married and have babies. Do I love my career? Yes, yes I do. I love teaching. I love those kiddos like they're my babies. I still do. But they're not my real babies. They're little lives that I get the privilege of touching each day. I have been waiting for the day that I would have babies of my own. I thought I had it all figured out. I would get married right out of college, we would wait a year or two and then I would get my babies. This girl's baby fever was/is out of control.
My plan wasn't His plan though. My plan was nothing compared to what God had in store for me. God made me wait and, Lord, am I thankful He did. You know that feeling when another piece of the puzzle finally falls into place and you feel complete? That feeling has happened a few times in my life: 1) When I crossed the faith line and gave Jesus my heart, 2) when I found my passion for children and teaching, 3) when I met and married my husband, and 4) the day I became a Mama. This is everything I have always wanted and God has blessed us beyond belief. I feel like God put me on this earth to be a Mama.
When we struggled to get pregnant, yet again, I had to call out to God. Why? Why us? I've been waiting for this for forever. Not so patiently, but I'd been waiting. And yet again...His plan. Not ours. They day we found out we were pregnant, I could hardly believe it. And now he's here. Our little man is here. Safe and sound and snuggled up in my arms (obviously not at this very moment seeing as how I am typing).
Now I get to be Mama and hopefully, I will get to be Mama to a couple more little rug rats. My heart is full. I have a merciful Savior, a job I love (and get to do!), a loving husband, and a sweet baby boy. He's stolen our hearts. If anyone can attest to God's goodness and faithfulness, it's me. He's given me all of my hearts desires...in His perfect time.
How is motherhood so far? Amazing. That little boy has stolen my heart. He's my world. Maybe I have an easy baby, but I can't complain about one thing. Not one. I can honestly say I have enjoyed every moment with him - even the sleep deprived, middle of the night nursing moments or the "won't stop crying" moments.
So what do I pray for now? I pray that I will be the kind of mama whose hubby and kids "rise up and call her blessed." This is my daily prayer and a journey I will be on for the rest of my life - Proverbs 31: 10-31.
10A wife of noble character who
can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still night;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her female servants.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
29 “Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all.”
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
31 Honor her for all that her hands have done,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.
She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still night;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her female servants.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
29 “Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all.”
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
31 Honor her for all that her hands have done,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.
It's beautiful isn't it? I only hope that someday my family can see that this is what I strove for. Will I be perfect? Hahahaha NO! But that's why I love my faith. I don't have to be perfect, because my Savior was. Christianity is a journey. I mess up every. single. day. Every single one of them. Christianity is a journey that I will never perfect. My only goal is to continue growing is my faith and be the best mama that I can be during my time here on this earth. Being Mama is my most important and favorite role in this life.
This is me - the real, non-perfect, goofy, air headed, type A me. Being Mama.
Ever heard of The Band Perry? They're on of my favorites. This song hasn't been on the radio that I know of, but it's on their CD! which is loaded in my car. When I listened to the whole CD, this song stuck with me. I absolutely love it. Maybe some day, my kiddos will think this about me. Wouldn't that be great?!
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